Incomplete...

Happiness: such a broad term. This can mean so many different things to so many different people. It can be anything from a simple word or phrase that elates you, to a life dream that you see materializing before your very eyes. This is the happiness that we all long for, yet so many of us spend a lifetime dreaming of, wishing we could find...this is the absolute in our eyes. This is that special something we all yearn for, deep within, whether we are willing to admit it, or not...this is what I have every time she is beside me.

So gentle readers, there is so much I could say at this point. I could begin with the trip to Alabama that my daughter and I took, the turbulative times we felt while there, when I felt I had to fight to keep my head above water; the wonderful proposal that followed, mending everything that had felt like it was shattering, making everything feel so right, leaving me longing to gaze down at my hand and see that symbol of forever; the one day we spent at our house, filled with false promises from third parties of long distance road trips, the stressful moments of trying to get that last moment plane ticket to spend special first holidays as a family, only having a second of time to do so; or I could skip all of the stressful, dramatic moments, and lead to where we are at right now...which is what I shall do...

After much traveling, seriously getting our air time in the period of two weeks, anywhere from Alabama to New Jersey, here we are now... Here I am...the one place i most long to be-- with the two most important people to me. My (one day our, hopefully) daughter, and the woman I love more than words can express... All I can do is bask in the lovely, blissful light of love and wish it never to end...knowing that one day, hopefully sooner than later, we will all enmesh as a family, and I will become her wife. This is all I can do; all I can think of. 
Running my hand over her face last night, gazing at her, memorizing every inch under my fingers, blinking back the tears that I could feel coming into my eyes, knowing that I will have to leave, not knowing for how long...filling me with inexplainable joy, yet unbelievable heartbreak...