Waking up this morning without you was difficult. I know that I have to be here right now to try to get everything wrapped up and for us to get a place up there to grow our little family, but that doesn't necessarily make it easier. I have been with you for the past 3 weekends! It feels as if I don't know how to function sometimes without you by my side.

You are tucked away sleeping right now; the phone is still on. Occasionaly I hear you stirring, and it makes me drift into daydream land momentarily....I think of how blissful it was to be in your arms; how warm and safe you felt. What I wouldn't give right now, just for a moment in your arms; to feel your lips against mine; your hands, drifting over my body....To be able to look into your eyes right now, and have you read my mind-- see into my heart and soul.

Sometimes words don't come easily, you know I'm a very visual thinker. I know this puts a strain on us sometimes, but at the same time, I know that when I look at you in that certain way, you know everything I wish I could say. You know exactly what I am feeling, and I love this...

I love you...my Daddy, my partner, my best friend, my future wife....you complete me in ways I did not know were possible.
Thank you.