I hate it when She seems slightly abrasive or has that dissociative air about Her. It makes me feel like I cannot fix something, and I want to, more than anything. I know it's not my fault; She continues to reinforce that, but is so vauge about the reasoning to the abrasive manner...I just wish I could fix it...

Perhaps tonight is just a precarious night for me...perhaps I am reading too much in between the lines? I think not, but perhaps it is easier to think that, then to think that something is wrong and there is nothing I can do to fix it.