Communication Errors...

Yesterday i was in quite the funk...after quite a bit of thinking,

Although i know and respect that You are on vacation right now, and truly want You to have fun with Your friends, i cannot help it if sometimes i may feel a little neglected. i do not mean to feel this way, and i do understand that throughout the day we are still texting and everything, just sometimes, after a long, exhausting day, everything is just too much, and i know we both know and recognize that when either of us are out of town, things change a little...
As i continued to think about this while falling asleep last night, i remembered my trip, not too awful long ago, to Alabama...while i was there i felt that i was still communicating with You for much of the day (and night) via text message. No, it was not on the same level that we usually communicate, however i felt that i was still dedicating much of my time to You--however You did not believe the same.
The way i am seeing this, is although i felt that i was still on a acceptable level, because it was a lesser level of communication that i was bringing on, it had a more negative impact on You...leaving me feeling inadequate...much like the feelings we discussed yesterday....

i did not like how i felt yesterday, at all. When i opened up and shared about it, i felt as if You didn't care much how i was feeling, but only cared what i was saying and how it made You feel. i am most definitely not saying that this is actually the case, because honestly, i do not believe it to be true, however, that is how i felt--one reality of the situation.
i know that You are trying to still maintain a reasonable level of communication; i understand that completely, and am very thankful for it. You are so amazing, really, truly. i don't want to make You feel inadequate--ever. i don't want You to ever feel as though You do not make me happy, because You do; much more than You could ever really know....

Thank You for being You...thank You for loving me, and making me feel special to You...You make my world a beautiful place, even when You don't think You do.