i'm not trying to sound like i'm 'one of a kind' or that i have been through things that other people do not feel that they have been through; or that You actually feel that they have been through, but i would honestly (with every fiber in my being) like to find someone who actually has been, and honestly understands, what i have been through...
To understand the constant scrutiny and pain i felt, for 18 long months, is so far beyond what i would ever wish anyone other than me, and those who know what it is like, to feel what i have felt.



....however, i will always love You, to a level You will never understand, for so many reasons...one of those being You try, with every fiber in Your being, to understand just where i have been...
...yet i would never, ever wish for You to feel the pain i have felt.