What a horrendous night this has turned into...all I want to do is to talk to Her...to hear Her voice again...to hear Her say 'sweet dreams babygirl' and that She loves me...is that so much to ask for?
After a god awful, horribly stressful day, I just want to feel Her love surrounding me...but instead I feel Her discontent with me; with my brattiness...sometimes *this* babygirl goes into a space that needs Her not to just give up on me at that moment, rather pull me closer...like She initially did tonight...before poofing away (although I do believe it was due to connectivity issues) it still hurts a lil bit....

I suppose I will go to bed and stop stressing, seeing as though that is the LAST thing I need to do, especially with these horrendous hives I am covered in, supposedly due to stress...I can wrap myself up in Her tshirt, and cry myself to sleep...just as I have done so many nights recently...

I hate this so much...3 weeks....3 long, tiresome, stressful, itchy weeks......I don't know how to soothe myself at this point....I just want OUT of this shitty place, and back into the arms of my Daddy,