Briefing....also known as an update.

So, tonight I am enjoying the sanctity of solitude...at least for the time present.

After a bit under two weeks here in Alabama, I am feeling that 'drop,' quite intensely, of not having my DaddyR by my side. (yes, I know and understand that She is doing Her damnedest to have me and Chloe there ASAP, and I truly appreciate this with every fiber of my being, but that does not mean that I am not able and entitled to having my own negative feelings due to us being apart) With that little side note being said, I am quite distraught over our distance. Again, yes, I signed up for this, in becoming involved in a LDR, yet, again, I am entitled to my feelings...(babygirl, yes. Strong-minded, yes. Good combo? Not always)

Really, this blog has no true purpose. I miss Her more than words can express. Currently, I am covered, head to toe, in hives...no idea why, honestly, However, I truly believe that they are somewhat related to my emotional state. Stress=sucking...perhaps there is some other hidden evil behind all of these itchy, burning red blotches, but I will not cease to believe that some element of them is due to stress...stress of not being with Her.

So, now comes the true question...why am I taking this so rough? Why is so having such a negative effect on me, this time, yet it hasn't impacted my wellbeing to this extent before?
Well, gentle readers, that's a damn good question...one that I only wish I had a true answer to...
The biggest reason I attribute to this is that as time moves forward with Her and I, I become more emotionally invested, as well as vulnerable. Yes, vulnerability scares the hold beegeezus out of me...but also, yes, it is worth it this time. For once, it is finally worth it to feel--both the ups and downs; the highs and lows--everything. Sheis worth feeling everything I trust Her...a lot more than I am readily willing to admit...

With that being said, I am going to return to my evening of solitary asylum...while waiting for that ever-so-longed-for call, from Her....I just thought this was a good time for a quicky! (get your head out of your pants! I'm referring to an update!*grins*)

***oh, and please forgive any horrendous typos...I'm not proofreading tonight.***