A Thoughtful Moment....

We all sit and wonder sometimes, what if...

what if we were left alone, to fend for ourselves in this cold, harsh world. What if we were left with every ounce of pain and lowliness we had ever felt, and had nowhere to turn with just that. These are the moments that we have nowhere to turn to. There is no place to run away from the darkness we possess at these volitle moments. This is the time when all we wish and dream and desire (for) is someone to hold us closely. These are the moments that none of us want to deal with in the moment, but we all have to accept and justify at one moment or another...these are the moments, at this one, i wish to speak of....

Some may look at my life and see it as something picturesque; as something they wish for or envy...but these are those very moments that i would try to encourage others against. These are those moments where the only true answer lies so deeps within oneself that it makes one feel if oneself is drowning....

Sometimes life presents itself in such ways that one does not know if one is drowning or if one is truly struggling to stay afloat...these are the moments where we all have to look to a higher presence, a higher being, and ask if one is worthy of the great gift that has been presented.


i have been granted the greatest gift i could have ever imagined in this glorious life. i have the person that loves me, unconditionally. i have that person that loves me whether i do right or wrong. i have that wonderful Woman that will take me in Her arms and tell me She loves me, no matter what i do; whether i do right or wrong...She still loves me.
Sometimes i wonder why She loves me to the extent that She does. Frequently i wonder when She will decide i am no longer worth it, and She can find an easier path in Her life, yet still, She sticks by my side. Thick and thin, i turn my head, and there She stands...more times than not, i wonder why, yet then i remember, although She may not always believe Herself to be a true Daddy, but She is. She is my true Daddy...

To me, my Daddy is someone who is there to support and push me no matter what. She is there, through thick and thin, to help me be a better person for not only me, but our family. For Her, me, and our family. my Daddy is someone who is always there to pull my head onto Her shoulder adn tell me it will be okay, even in times of doubt. my Daddy knows how to make it all better. She knows how to embrace and surround me in Her essence and take away all of my pain....

i am a complicated girl. i do not always know what is right and what is wrong, nor what way is up and what way is down; yet my true Daddy always knows how to push me in the right direction and show me what i should be doing at any given moment. my true Daddy knows just the right way to hold me, and to make me feel loved...my Daddy knows just what to do to make me feel oh so very very love by Her, and in these moments, that is all that matters....
to this babygirl.